How I am Feeling

When I have anxiety, I worry about things. One thing that I worry about from my anxiety is driving. I am always worried I will get into a wreck. Or, that something might happen while I am driving. I do not like driving on the Interstate.

Driving on the Interstate just is not safe. There is to much traffic. It is mind boggling how much traffic is on the interstate. So, I stay off the Interstate. Instead, I just drive on the regular roads. There is still a lot of traffic on them, sometimes too. But it is more manageable. When I drive to work, I drive on the State Highway, instead of on the Interstate. My anxiety is about getting into a wreck at high speed.

I was in a wreck once. I can still remember the sound the cars made when they collided. I can also remember the feeling of hitting the airbag as it activated. It was very unsettling. After my wreck I kept having anxiety about injuries. My anxiety usually begins before I start to drive. While driving, most of the time, I am ok. But I still do worry about hitting another car, or being hit.

It has been over two years since my accident. But I am still unsettled by how it happened. I was going left, and it was a flashing amber light. But as I turned, I realized a car was coming. Also, I the light turned to solid amber. Meaning it was about to turn red. But I was in the middle of the intersection.

Anyways, as I drive along, sometimes I am worried about hitting the car next to me. Or bumping into the one in front of me. Or, that the one behind me might rear-end me. It almost sounds like nonsensical fear, but it isn’t. Although, my wreck happened as a front on collision. The insurance company took care of it. I have not heard hide nor hair of the person I hit. I wish I could apologize, and ask forgiveness.

I bought a MyPillow. I bought it for my Mom, for her birthday. Day after day, we sit there watching Tucker Carlson, but then Mike Lindell comes on with his slipper ads. But I wanted to get a pillow. So, I bought one for my Mom. I think she will enjoy resting on it, as she watches Tucker Carlson, knowing she owns a product advertised on his segment.

I read a story on Instagram. From WORLD News. It had a meme for “Effective Compassion”, and a story about one of the prisoner’s who came to know Jesus while he was behind bars. He was sentenced to 50 years in prison for drug related charges. But then the sentence was reduced to 15 years. So, now this person is out of jail, but has a relationship with Jesus Christ. It was such an uplifting story. I like stories where prisoners come to know Jesus. In prison, there is no shame at His name. There was also a story about a prisoner on death row. He had his sentence reduced from Death to Life in prison. In the state of Texas.

I included this reel from Instagram. I was impressed by it. But what was most impressive was how, without a single protest, or riot, Trump and Trump voters produced so much change, it was not even funny. Trump never loses.